I guess I've not got the heart to delete all these memories, no matter how much they may all hurt.

OK...so I don't use my LJ often, but given the recent events I have so much to say to whoever feels bored enough to read it.

I'm sorry Sarah for doing this online but I want you to read this as much as I want everyone else to.

Last night me and Sarah broke up over something that happened due to a combination of events. I've not slept nor ate since talking to Sarah, going over and over everything in my mind about what has happened and how it happened, trying to find where we've gone wrong and where we should of gone instead of where we have ended up. I'm in a spot right now where I'm begging to turn back the clock to the start of the new year, wanting to find a way to fix what has happened...but I can't...I know I can't and I know it's not healthy to obsess about wanting to do so. I know it was a combination of both our parts to of prevented it...yet I still feel so responsible, for my part of what happened. I drove her away towards someone else, not being there for her when she needed me until it was too late.

Since midnight last night all thats been going through my mind is her. These past two and a half years have been so happy with her by my side, in both the good and the bad times. Yet I have to admit that whats happened between us might be for the best. Our love was strong but not immortal, and as much as it pains me this might be for the best on both our parts. I knew that the only thing that would hinder our relationship was the distance, and now it seems like it has drived the wedge between us completely. At the end of the day we both need someone to hold and to love more than for just a week a month. She's saving up for her trip and I'm doing my volunteering for the next few months, there wouldn't of been an answer convenient for us both for a long time. Maybe if in the future we could try again when we are in a better place it would be a happier ending, but as it is that is not the case.

I hope you and Mike are happy together Sarah...I honestly mean it. You deserve someone who will treat you right when you need it, not when it's convenient.

See? I do update it!

Since i've not updated in a while:


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For the months from my last post I have the following opinions to make to catch up (in no particular order):

- My decision has made me feel much more content and happy, though leaves me feeling iffy in areas.

- Kingdom Hearts 2 was WELL worth the wait.

- Shonen Jump had a very successful October, with 3 good shows getting on air.

- My biggest regret of the year is buying a PSP, yet i cannot get rid of it yet.

- I am willing to put money on the fact that i will in tears to the last episode of Hajime no Ippo, just like like i was for the ending of Kingdom Hearts 2.

- Xbox 360 is still a boring machine, despite the full 48 hours of amusement Xbox Live brings.

- I put too much hope in friends who not only let me down but let my word down.

- Sarah is the most sweetest, lovable, greatest girl ever on the planet, and will always have my complete love!

- Nintendo Wii will be so good that I am begging to fear it's awesomeness.

- Fullmetal Alchemist movie was the first anime-series tie-in movie (as in 1 hr 30 mins running time or longer) I have ever seen that was not God awful! It was actully really good.

- My aligance to Playstation is close to critical point of breaking, with few good PS2 games coming out, less good PS3 games coming out and even lesser still good PSP games coming out.

- For a game where the only gameplay difference between the 2 is barely noticable, Phoenix Wright 2 is great!

- Oversized afros get in the way of a good Halloween pub-crawl.


That is all.

She gets me AMAZING birthday gifts! XD



Anyway - To recap:

Meeting at 6pm at Central - feel free to come if your up for an all-you-can-eat buffet of Chinese, Japanese and Thai food, or up for a few drinks. ^_^

*evil laughter* Supah Hiccu has infiltrated Mr Purples livejournal! I can now proceed to kidnap his soul...

Muaaaahahahaha, Mr Purple shall never succeed in his evil plans to take over mankind! I am victorious! By making him give me his password on pain of death, I shall destroy his base and save the world! Hurray for me!

On other news, Laser Quest in Birmingham today and I have no idea why Im not posting this in my own journal.

What an amazement last night was!

Since i come from an Italian family we were all invited down to Oni's house to watch the world cup final. We were on the edge of our seats, hearing Oni's dad and his brother-in-law (Oni's uncle) argue about every single decision the referee did (or didn't) make. By the time the final penalty was kicked we were all on our feet watching the TV. Then when the ball went in it was all cheers and hugs.

After a good half-hour of waving the huge flags we had by Bishopbriggs cross and hearing all the passing cars honking thier horns for us we all piled into the car and went to George Square to celebrate like my parents say they did 24 years ago when they last won the cup. When we got to George Square there was already a huge crowd (only 10 minutes after seeing Italy lift the cup) all circled round the statue that is closest to Queen Street station, climbing up on the sides and even some on the part were the statue's feet touched the monument. Claude gave me a push up to the top with the others and i sat there for at least an hour waving the huge flag over the crowd chanting any number of Italian chants over the huge crowd around us. I've never been in such a charged atmosphere before, it was like standing over a sea of pride. It didn't last that long though, by 11pm or so the police (who had just been patrolling around making sure there was no trouble or cars passing by the square) decided we have had enough fun and made everyone get down from the statues and stop drinking. It was a shame to have it end so early but it was still such an amazeming feeling.

If i can be assed i'll take the photos i took on my phone of the crowd off and put them on here.

The reason I have not been posting in my LJ in ages is because i have nothing to post about! I have spent 10 straight days in the house, only leaving to pick up and show off some friends on Wednesday/Thursday last week and a short trip to the Mosh meet last week. Otherwise i have been minding the puppy as he grows and downloading nearly every inch of internet entertainment to keep me occupied.

So yeah...i'm not dead yet o.O

After the big Transformers movie leak on Wednesday I have spent ages trying to get all the leaked Transformers movie images together, but due to the mass cover-up on it i'm gutted that i only found 1 of the prop Bumblebee they are using.



If anyone has any of the others please point me in their direction.

Apparently, it was due to the movie leak that they released the teaser trailer earlier than planned. Also, how i lawled at the post Don Murphey put on his forum about it. Click here to see it.

I can hear the puppy cry from the kitchen, where he is locked up on his own for the night.

I know i cant go keep him company because he needs go get used to sleeping in the kitchen until he's house-broken, but it's still so heart-breaking! ;-;

Wow, today happened so suddenly it's strange. Well, not suddenly, it was bound to happen...

Since our 7 year old dog who we've had since he was 10 weeks old got run over 2 and a half years ago we've been very reluctant of getting a new dog, partly because we didn't wanna go through what we went through with dylan again, but partly because no one had the time to raise him from a pup.

This morning my mom was going through old photos to arrange them and saw the Dylan photos, saying she still wants a new dog. Since we've got a bette scheduale now and the money I looked online for any Lhasa Apso breeders nearby - just for curiosity. We found one in Kilmarnock who had 3 8-week old puppies for sale We called the breeder who told us she has only 1 left then gave us her address and then we all decided to go down and buy the puppy!

So, meet the newest member of the Spitoni family - Diego ^_^
We had hell naming him as a family, here were all the hopeful names:

Tyler
Bob
Luka
Parappa
Kaiba
Brando
Vito
Gigi (my grandfather's nickname)

But in the end we agreed on Diego....we expect him to eventually have "The Paw of God"

I got only 2 hours of sleep last night due to having the mother of all stomach aches last night. I couldnt sleep without it putting major pressure on my intestins and keeping me awake. It was 6am before i dosed off, and i was up at 8am due to a phone call from my mom ;-;

It's been 4 days since the Death Note movie came out (which i confirmed on a Japanese cinema-listings website was showing it last Saturday) and I'm upset that no torrent for the RAW has been put up yet. I know the sub wouldn't be made but i at least thought someone would of been able to pirate the movie from the cinema and broadcast it online by now.

Other than that i'm majorly bored! So bored i did a meme.

Yesterday was a decent success.

I was in town early (to escape the house while my mom was in tidy-mode) and sat about killing time for an hour, running into Washu and Tenchi in the morning. I just had a quick chat with them before i had to run off. I was the first at central and met Martin Tonner, a face not seen in almost 2 years. The standerd general chit-chat and words of wisdom were exachanged before Loki showed up, followed by Leita (my new twin in awesome-appearanceness!). Kody and Koneko eventually showed up to complete the Invading Trio! A trip to Ichiban for lunch was the start, then to the Botanical Gardens near Hillhead. On the way we met Jonny Fear and Vivi. We sat about and chatted and played with the freashly bought frizbee. Kenny chame and joined us at some point and that was us for a few hours.

Sooner or later we all had to go our own seperate ways, where the 3 english ones dissapeared to sort out the room and Kody left to get changed and sort other stuff out. I was left in town doing nothing for the next 2 hours and had no idea how to kill the time. I gave shinji a ring and went to spend time with him. I met his friend (who's name i forgot and if she is reading this - my apoligies ^_^() ) who was an absolute riot! She told me about how she one did a Kairi cosplay and when i said i did Sora she told me how much we needed to cosplay together sometime, which always works for me. When they all went to the Ichiban for a meal I went with them (but didn't plan on eating as i was looking forward to the buffet at Kody's) when Penfy rang with the tasteful question "Who's that sexy girl you are chatting to?" He went on to tell me he was at the Rock Gardens so i went and chatted with him and Paul for a while over a few drinks - just a general gossiping. When they had to leave for thier Japanese-class party i left to find Shinji again, only to see he didn't go to the Ichiban. I only had 1 hour to go until 7pm so I just wandered around town for an hour. It was at this point i met ol' Ginger (people might remember her as Shinji's old stalker) and chatted to her briefly until she dissapeared, where i used the time to find Bar Soba and have a few drinks by myself, leaving plesently tipsy.

To kill the final 15 minutes I just went to sit in Central Station when I was suddenly shouted at by 4 girls and motioned to sit next to them. Doing so they told me the now-common saying "Your hair is fucking amazing, whats your MySpace?" Oh how I lolled when they were confused to me saying "I don't have a MySpace." They then proceeded to chat to me and generally prod me until i was joined/rescued by Leita, Loki and Koneko. Kody eventually joined us and then we went to met Chiyo and Colin in a nearby bar for more general drinking and gossiping. When time passed we wandered to Bar Soba and sat there until Kody's booking was available, but the meal was delayed as Kody had to sort things out with the barman since Koneko forgot her ID. The awful thing is - by the time the problem was sorted out and everyone else arrived i got a text by my mum with the command to return. I was so gutted to have to leave early, especially before i got fed!!! ;-;

Still, last night was great! A good night for the bearday. ^_^

After watching 6 epsiodes of it today i decided to search "Hotline to Hell" in google, when i found this.

Ok, so it's no real surpise to me that someone replicated the website, but it is still one of the strangest things i have seen on the internet for a long time...though i am half curious about using it. >.>

Its that "Pick 10 people from your LJ friends list and write a short paragraph describing them and saying what you like / dislike about them." thing. Feel free to guess who is who!

This seemed like a good way to kill time before dinner. >.>

1. Your someone I have only started to get to know better but already i see you as one of my closest friends, you seem to have something to say as well as want to hear as much. I do think you make a few stupid decisions but we all do so it's nothing to hold against you. Your definently one cool person, and it will be good to get you know you better as the summer passes.

2. A very caring and friendly person indeed, one of the nicest i have met, which is why i am puzzled why everytime i see you (which i admit is not often) you seem to be doing nothing....ever. I worry about you sometimes cause of it. You are a friendly person (though shy) and fun to talk to when there is a subject you back on discussion, but you can equally be very quiet and difficult to talk to. >.>

3. You were someone i wanted to get to know, but are difficult to talk to. You do show want to get to know me better but i get the feeling socializing isn't your strong point, which i highly respect and want to help by putting forward the effort myself. I would like to think that we could be friends yet. Also i worry for your relationship life. You might have someone in your life but I really do wonder if that person is really making you happy or if you'd be happier with someone else.

4. Actully i used to be annoyed at you - you would shun me IRL and i was certain you didn't like me, but for some reason i am finding it easier to talk to you online...good to see you and I are falling on the same page finally, you are a laugh and a half and have a jolly sense of humour.

5. Your funny, good for a chat and very honest, but I think our history is stopping you from truely wanting to be my friend sometimes, which i think is so stupid. No matter of our past I still see you as a good friend and someone i would like to spend more time with, but just by the way you talk to me (or dont talk to me more likely) I really know that these feelings are one sided.

6. Your heart can seem endless at times just by how caring, kind and friendly you are. After meeting you alot of things have changed in my life, i feel more confident in myself and more humane at times. Your definently the type of friend i never want to part from, and want to have involved in my life too. I have seen your drive to help countless of times and am so happy to see you suceed, but i do wonder if you rely on validating yourself through your deeds a bit too much, and are a little short of seeing people will respect and love you highly just for who you are. ^_^

7. Such a wild person indeed, it's what makes a convorsation with you great to have, but your way too obbessive to the point it seems unhealthy...you really should take up trying new things to maybe break your addictive nature.

8. A friendly person who will chat to anyone and someone i highly respect, it does puzzle me how you sometimes have such a single minded train of thought on certain subjects and get pissed off when the negitive side of the subjects unearth themselves. Though no matter what i still highly respect your opinions and advice you give me. ^_^

9. Someone else i really would like to get close to but i sense some distance is wanted. Your a funny, friendly kind of person who just knows how to make people smile instinctivly and are the kind of friend everyone wants to know.

10. "Lol" is all i have to say, because thats all you make me do with your sharp wit and sillyness. You have a keen eye for humour which makes chatting with you as interesting as it is witty. ^_^

I AM: an anime fan
I WANT: what i cannot have
I WISH: I was so rich i would never need to work again
I HATE: bullies
I MISS: being younger when life was simpler
I FEAR: being in fights
I HEAR: the hum of my PC tower
I WONDER: if i am respected as much or as little as i think
I REGRET: alot of my decisions
I AM NOT: what i want to be
I DANCE: badly
I SING: off-key
I CRY: when my heart is broken
I AM NOT ALWAYS: proud of what i do
I MAKE WITH MY HANDS: meals
I NEED: money
I SHOULD: get a job
I START: University next year
I FINISH: my drinks
I LOVE: my loving hiccu
I TAG: my loving hiccu

Yesterday was a glorious day indeed, despite a few minor hiccups.

I met fif-nee-chan early yesterday and had my usual glomping fun with her before Katsuya and Scotty showed up and joined up for a shopping trip. I bought myself a new pair of sunglasses and cool new trousers with the money i FINALLY got from Jonny. I'll get a picture of them later to show off. When in town i did get chatting to Various - the american-street magician guy. He's such a pervert it's hilarious....i don't think fif-nee-san was too pleased though at what he said ()>.>

After we picked up other GA people we headed over to McGinns for a really good meet. Me and Katsuya were at the bar getting drinks when we noticed a girl in what looked like an FMA t-shirt (i can never remember the symbol so i had to take Katsuya's word for it). When we mentioned the t-shirt (as a base) and then asked if she was here for the meet we realised that we had just found the lurking Marmotgirl from the forums, who we quickly directed upstairs to the festivities. I also met Ranjitsu for the first time, who was really cool to chat to. He told me how he's part of a talent agency who hires background people only as a part-time job and it requires no experiance, so i'm waiting for him to give me the info on that and i'll be closer to starring as a background character in Harry Potter (check my post back in Febuary on that one).

After some chatting and some fondling of Shinji a few of us dissapeared down to Crystal Palace for some more drinks in a more open space. It was here I think my drinking increased. When i got back to McGinns i ran into Ste who had a vodka and coke with him i was sipping from, which got me in the mood for vodka...despite that i know how i cannot handle vodka well, i still decided to take the challange. After 3 glasses i was quite pleasently pissed up to closing time.

Those remaining at the meet made the trip over to the Catty for some more drinking and basic foolary. It was a really good night at the cathouse yesterday. I met a guy in a Bleach t-shirt who was pleased that other anime fans existed, to which i pointed him in the direction of the GA website (this is why you should always carry a pencil kids!). Not only this but i got chatting to some randoms who took it upon themselves to dub me "Mr. Purple", a title so good i'm gonna ask a mod later to make it my new title on the GA forums. Other than that i did seem to doze off for a bit in the catty, but again thats vodka's work. It was shocking when i woke up and saw penfy dancing with 2 hot girls...it was such a Twilight Zone moment! Though to be fair Penfy's dancing would attract 2 girls simultaniously in his direction.

By the time i got home it was already daylight, and this was only about 4:30am! I quickly fell asleep but only to be woken up by Sarah calling me on my mobile and saying nothing (i think her phone was not on keylock and rubbing in her pocket)....i couldn't get back to sleep afterwards. ;-;

All in all it was a successful night indeed. ^_^

Saw this on Ninja's LJ, seemed like an interesting meme.

To use Hiccu's altered version:

Step 1: Post this into your LJ.
Step 2: others will reply anonymously ^_^ about what they really think of you.
Step 3: cry, because this meme is so brutal, and it hurts.

Today was so good i'm charting it up as a myth - days are not supposed to THIS much fun! o.O

I went into town for another RP meet, but when i arrived early I didn't see anyone, but saw Ashely (Shinji's ex girlfriend) in town and had such a laugh talking to her. Eventually Jirlond appeared, and around the same time i spotted such an amazingly-rare creature - everyone's favourite emo-otaku SHINJI!!! I tackled him with an amazingly tight glomp as he feared for his life. I found out he might be going to toko too, which will be great! ^_^

We got him to stay and chat until we ran into GDM and Matt, having an absolute riot chatting with them as Shinji dissapeared to do his Shinjiness. It was when waiting for Louden, Pyriel and Katsuya to arrive that we ran into an amazing find - Cammy, Mishi and Avis! Seeing as this is the first time I have seen Avis in about a year i felt obliged to run up and chat. That was a great boost to the happiness of the day ^_^.

Eventually Pyriel and Louden show up, but Katsuya was running late (seeing as he had only been asked an hour ago to come into town and meet up for 3pm) so we chatted about so much amazing heaps of crap I cannot remember most of it off the top of my head. Shinji re-appeared again and with many of his emo-crew. We kidnapped them all and molested Shinji to tears (of joy....which was the scariest part) and just bugged the crap out of him until Katsuya came and saved him from certain destruction. We all left for Wolfboys at this point.


After RPing we left Wolfboys laughing our asses off and returned to our homes, where i randomly ran into Jonny and even spotted Willy-Wonkette-chan (aka. Tina) on the walk home. I taught Jonny about the less-interesting history of Bishopbriggs and who Leroy Jenkins was. (He thought he was a rapper....)

Now i sit at home looking back on today and i cant help but wonder "Why aren't days this cool anymore?"

EDIT: It is also realised that the purple hair makes me irrisistable to women......over 40 years old. About 6 older ladies told me how much they loved my hair today, as well as 2 feeling it randomly. o.O